Trials

I suppose, though it has been a notably long time since I have written anything, this is probably an irresponsible time to write. When writing with only emotions guiding you, what comes out is most often irrational. Most postings on FaceBook, Twitter, or blogs are written by the emotions of teenagers. To write when one is emotional is to put your own irrational words down in ink forever. It seems to be the worst possible thing to do, but seems also to be the most common natural reaction for teens.

To write when I am struggling against depressive moods is definitely a bad idea, but writing down only what appear to be rational and clearly thought out ideas strikes me as an activity worth trying out. If I can push my maturity and rationality to the limit, stretching my own boundaries of remaining level-headed in the face of the unseen forces known by the depressed as waves of enemies that crash upon us at the most unlikely and unsuspected of times, then hopefully, I will have grown from this experience, and will be a better woman of valor for it.

I try my hardest to see complete joy in these regular trials, and have been doing better every time. The Lord is faithful, and He will always use the negative in positive ways for those who are willing.
"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." ~James 1:2-4

Lord, I am willing, and I am praying on my knees the You will bless me with the humility and the endurance to run this race for You.
"Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified." ~1 Corinthians 9:24-27